“如果没有你”

“如果没有你” - If, without you...

Hey, 我真的好想你
Hey, I miss you a lot...

现在窗外面又开始下着雨
It starts to rain again outside...

眼睛干干的 有想哭的心情
My eyes are dry, My tears cant be controlled

不知道你现在到底在哪里
I have no idea where you are now...

Hey，我真的好想你
Hey, I really miss you a lot...

太多的情绪没适当的表情
I cant express my true feeling

最想说的话 我应该从何说起
I have no idea how should i start to tell you what i think

最想说的话 我该从何说起
I have no idea who to begin with our conversation

你是否也像我一样在想你
Are you miss me like i do?!


如果没有你
If, without you

没有过去 我不会伤心
without the pass, i wont be sad

但是有如果还是要爱你
If there is another chance, i stil choose to love you

如果没有你
If, without you

我在哪里又有什么可惜
There wont be any meaning with my presence

反正一切来不及
because it is too late

反正没有了自己
Because i had lost myself


Hey，我真的好想你
Hey, I really miss you a lot...

不知道你现在到底在哪里
I have no idea where you are now...

你是否也像我一样在想你
Are you miss me as much as i do?!



By my favorite singer - Jam Xiao


Sung by Anthony from chao ji xing guang da dao! Sexy~~~


Original singer -by Carren Mok


I miss you~~~

Emo...

Please allow me to be emotional, jz a little...
Esp today is valentine's day...

Today wake up with nothing special feeling...
After church, went to karaoke with frens..
And, i sang a nomber of songs..
And, i think of you and start to miss you... Jz a little...
But, nothing special..
Jz because of the song and because im lonely, I guess...


Still remember b'coz of this song, we were together...




Stil remember, we sang this song 2gether in bed?!

I miss you... Jz a bit... ha!
Hope you'll be happy.. coz, i dun deserve you...
Baby, i'll always pray for you that you'll always be happy!


And, after a year (i guess?!) I still miss you EVERY time i listen to this song...



Hope u'll be fine!!!

Great songs!!!

Amei is COMING!!!

OMFG!!! jz learned from my fren that Amei is coming to TOWN again this year, as she promised during her last trip to M'sia...

I want the front row!!!
I'm crazily in love with her!!
and, all my frens know of it..

Once in my life, I sang her song for 3-4 hours ALONE in karaoke room.. jz for her songs... from the 1st page.. but, sadly, i couldn't finish... coz, her SONGs are toooooo many and i know almost all of it... hehe!
Am i crazy??!!!
Yes.. im crazy with Amei...

p/s:
Amei makes me think of you... miss you!!
Wil Uwanna join me to her consert this time?!
Will you go?
I guess so! hehe...

All the best!

Birthday...

Yes... when one's age getting older, he/she wont be that excited for their birthday as those days when one was younger...
Me too... this year, i have no much feeling about that...

But, in my mind, for quite a long time, i WANNA spend my birthday alone with my handphone OFF.. so that, nobody will disturb me and find me out for some other things...

i DON"t feel lonely, but kind of enjoying being ALONE...
i know, im weird... that's y i dun have many real friends with me...
even those who are close to me, always feel im weird to be with...

Some people feel that im an artistic guy for sure, as im weird, and all musician/ artists are weird...
I never deny...

This year, my birthday means the begining of my holiday, approaching Chinese New Year, and it is also the end of my 'suffer' in my current posting (Or, in medical life...)

I cant wait to start my own business, and leave medical field...
as, all DOCTORs are DOG-tors... no life... jz hospital, and hospital and hospital...
it's very sad... and pathetic...
If i keep continue in this field and sacrifice my time for these things which i dun like at all, i'll be regret in future.... (Most people, jz doing routine things to keep their life going, they forget and abandon their dream for long time... i doubt that, in future, they'll regret when they look back...)

Life is short, I dont want to live with regret...
so, the ONLY wish in my birthday is...
May my dream comes true... (leaving medical field ASAP...)
and, i am happy to stay single...

p/s:
Boy boy, im sorry for leaving you...
not ur fault, but, it's my selfishness...
plz forgive my selfishness...
I love you!

My boy boy

Because i went for movie almost daily after work with my fren, therefore, we could only meet after a few days on Fri night...
My Bad...
He was exhausted (and, i dint even ask the reason), but he stil came to my place, because of me... and he had not taken his dinner either...
He 'ta bao' for me...
and, i just lied on the bed, not willing to look into him.. because after a tiring week in a new ward, i was really really exhausted... Somemore, i am on-call on the next day (Pre-call syndrome)...
He left me at around 11pm... as i was really tired, and i dint care about him as well...
Only until the next day, i sms him and apologize to him...

If u ask me, whether i care about him...
Undoubtedly, I will say 'yes'...
However, he always praised other guys in front of me in order to stir up my jealousy...
But, i did not jealous...
Probably because i know deeply that he just talked talked for fun...
But, my thought is not parallel with my action, i guess... (I dun know why!!!)

He likes to sing very much...
And, i always stopped him, coz he was always out of tune... haha!
He likes to tell me how attractive he is to other gays,
But, i never agree with him that he's that attractive...
As my experience tells, 'u worths the credit only give others give you from the bottom of their heart, not by yourself...'

P/S:
Boy boy, thx for bringing food during my on-call...
Boy boy, thx for singing and cheering me up when i was tired and sad...
Boy boy, thx for tolerating my stubborn and weird tempers...

I love you!

His birthday...

Today is his BIG day...
I have been headache with what i should do for this celebration...

Soooooooooooooo bad...
Because i was too tired, and he was tooooo kind, we missed the time for his body balance class.. i felt soooooooooooo bad... due to my laziness, he missed his class which he never/seldom miss for the past 3-4 years... i was a bad bf... i know!

And, he was mad at me, as i was busy checking my facebook and refused to get ready for karaoke session...
He went out to have his cigratte (pretend to be angry), and i immediately rushed to take a quick shower before he really gets angry at me at his BIG day...

And, he couldn't get a parking slot because today is SUNDAY and it was the afternoon... His mood lagi 'tak baik'... 1st time, saw him really angry and threw his tantrum at me... Scary!
I kept consoling him for not to get angry, esp on his birthday...

We started our karaoke session...
Oh.. time flies.. in twinkling of an eyes, 4 hours has passed...
And, he enjoyed very much... I am happy!
We were crazily dancing, singing and kissing...
OMFG... this was my very 1st time, i sang soooooooooooo many broken cantonese song... I really should brush up my cantonese!!! What a shame, after staying in KL for 6 years, i still cant speak a more proper cantonese...
Sorry to my patients as well... (as many of them couldn't understand my broken cantonese as well...)

We planned for a movie.. but, the schedule was not suited with our time... so, we gave up our plan, but for dinner in one of his favourite mamak stall...

Yeah... i told him i did not buy anything for him from singapore...
but, i did buy a necklace for him...
He said "thank you" happily...
I like to see his smiling face, as he is very cute, just like a small kid receiving a gift from Santa Claus... haha!
And, I played him a birthday song and my own composing - Christmas song...
Then, I kissed him gently, followed by giving him a hand-made birthday card, with the 8 letters, 3 words, which he wants to listen from me...
and, YES... I finally said it to him, at his birthday...
I told him, I want this to be special...
I hope, it is indeed very special to him...


P/S:
Baby,
Happy Birthday...
and, I LOVE you...