A song for you

im composing a song for you.. during my holiday...
will record and post it up once it's complete!

u'll know the message thru the song when u listen to it...
and, i MISS you...

hope u are fine and happy!

Will time heal?!

Time wil heal?!
i totally believe those days...

but, i dun really believe it anymore...
coz, im stil missing you...

i keep singing this song..
and, i keep on 'searching' for you in public.. ha!
how silly i am?!
i KNOW... ha!



Im stil missing you...
A lot...

I miss you!!!

I miss you!!

I miss you!!!

i never stop missing you...

Where r you?!

Main Character

Every movie has its own main character who will be protected and loved by others (No matter how hard the life is)…

I kept flashing back my own life, why was I left alone most the time… I dun care being lonely, but I need someone to lend me their shoulders when I was uneasy… but, I couldn’t think of anyone…

Maybe I am too dominant… People scared of me
Maybe I am too protective… Nobody dares to approach…
Maybe I am too confident… so, this makes me to take the lead all the time…

Im tired…
Im sad…
Im weak…

Sometimes, I need someone to lead me, to concern me, and to arrange/organize things for me… coz, im really tired to be the lead…


WHO is willing to do that for me?!
You?
You?
Or you…?!

A Letter to Little Dove

Little Dove,

Where are you?
Where are you going?
Why are you flying/leaving alone?!
Are you happy?
Are you lonely?
Are you living happily with PC?!
Or, you are now trapped deep in the jungle?!

Happy for you!
Im sorry!
And, I miss you!


Johnny...

Where are you, baby?!

It was 4pm…

I sweated profusely…
My laptop battery was dead…
Reading novel and playing piano as if I was in a sonar room…
I was attacked by thousands of annoying flies… (As well as my grandma Alzheimer speech!!)

WTF! What’s a life?!
Why am I still alive?!

TNB, where are you?
HOW much do we pay you monthly?!
U took 7-8 hrs to fix a few cables…?! (WTF!!!)
Do you know how hot the weather is nowadays?! From 11am till 7pm… it’s unforgivable!!!
Do you know how much pain and damage do you cause to others?!


你害怕的是什么
What are u scared of?
你想要的是什么
What do u want?
站在你背后 我连呼吸都痛
Stand behind you, I can feel the pain even when i breathe

CRAZY Johnny!

Johnny: "Little Dove?!"
Alex: "What?"
Johnny: "Are you little dove? smart guy"
Alex: "May i know who are you, please"
Johnny: "Meet me, then you'll know me! BTW, which hospital are you going for your elective posting?!"
Alex: "Malacca hospital... may i know who are you, please..."
Johnny: "...You know me!"
Alex: ~~calling~~
Johnny cut his call, coz he knows that is not LD...
LD is gentle and mysterious...

Johnny was spending endless hrs/days working on who LD is in real person...
he called, sms, friendster searching, google searching... asked frens or frens' frens for help, etc!!!
Crazy HIM! but, at the end, he still couldn't find out who LD is...
Pathetic huh?!

This officially makes HIM a crazy, stupid stalker!
SAD........

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NO MORE!! NO MORE!!!
Johnny will be away for holiday and that will be a place without internet...
Only movies, books, family and piano!!

BYE!


Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules. Then you must learn to play from the heart

I lay in bed, tossing and turning. I stared at the blank white wall and curled up into a ball. I burrowed underneath my blanket, trying to disappear...